Closest Girlfriends...

Dedicated to my closest girlfriends...I love you all!

Okay,the time now is 1229h. I'm currently doing some research on media ethics and nothing seems to be coming through...#frustration! So I decide to let my highly imaginative mind wander a "little" bit. Going to my archived photos, I see awesome crazy pics of my friends, family and I. And the walk down memory lane begins...

Enter FNN. She's one amazing, absolutely hilarious and loyal friend. Besides being two years my junior, she's the one person outside my family I've known the longest. I'm not talking months but since the mid-nineties ('96 I think?) She's more like the younger sister I never had, and our strong friendship actually cemented the relationship between my parents and hers. Almost all my childhood photos have both of us together somewhere therein, and boy, do I miss those days! The events I'll forever cherish were the birthdays, swimming outings, and the day we sang at her uncle's wedding. I'm feeling tempted to post some incredibly incriminating pics...hmmm, I'll decide. All in all, the main attributes I learn from FNN are: her ever cheerful personality, good taste in fashion (ten nil hapo), her deep love for God and loyalty as a friend. Even though we're all grown up now, the friendship is still rife and I thank God for her everyday!

Then there's SNM. Also goes by the name bff... We met in high school, the one with the flyover just near city center? Right! You must have figured it's alias is Pangoe. We were never really that close, despite sharing a class (though we did talk quite a bit). However, as soon as we stepped out of the prison gates and smelled the air of freedom (kidding!), the connection just seemed to grow exponentially with each passing day. Within no time, we were always hanging out together like conjoined twins and loving every moment of our youth. Even when Mr.Man came, swept yours truly off her feet, then subsequently broke her heart, SNN came to my rescue, wiped them tears off my visage (haven't used that word since Std.8) and proved to me that she would always be there for me. And we've both had a couple of them Mr.Men, but the friendship still stands very much unfazed - despite the distance. We have had so many memorable moments together and have seen each other through the best and worst of life. I definitely adore the sleepovers; characterized by hours and hours of endless stories, laughter and tears. And how coincidental is it that we are both studying PR and print media?! I could go on and on but all I can say is that I admire SNM's positive outlook towards life, outgoing personality, blondness (*ahem* It's mutual), undying friendship and honesty...yup, she will tell you the truth whether you like it or not. We definitely need more SNM's around!

Next, we have SKM. We also met in the blue institution, and she is known by many as my "school mum." I've got to admit that the first time I met her, I really liked her. Her tone of voice however, commands respect and many view her as being too tough and serious. We also did get along quite well. She oriented me into high school life. We did have fights tantamount to the infamous world wars. Thank God they were very short lived and soon as we made up, we would laugh about it like it was nothing. I miss the days when we were roommates; more so bunkies... I remember the year '08 was the worst I've ever had in my entire twenty years on this earth. Everything seemed to be going downhill in my life; spiritually, emotionally, academically, health wise- I was really sick. Nevertheless, SKM was there for me through it all, even when I faced opposition from the entire school as a C.U. official. Life was tough, but I remember SKM was always there to listen to me cry and pour my heart out. Just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes... Up until this day, SKM and I still share a bond so unique and I love her patience, honesty (she speaks her mind clearly, no doubt!) and her unparalleled wisdom. Period.

Moving on, GS comes into the picture. Another friend I met in prison... (it sounds funny in my head!)Right from the moment we stepped into the institution smelling like we'd robbed school outfitters, GS and I clicked. She's one of a strong character and this greatly put many off. We both shared a passion for words- writing and poetry. Singer, actress, poet? fits her description wholly. We shared a prison cell (classroom,haha) and had many mutual friends. During our 4-year sentence at the institution, we had many high and low times. The lows were definitely more than the highs but glad it's all in the past. I must admit that at some point our friendship underwent a rough (very) patch and I wasn't exactly the best friend to her. GS's resilience however was something that made me realize that true friendship takes work, commitment and sacrifice and no one can destroy your friendship unless you let them. GS is one who had to endure me ranting and raving about my endless high school crushes (I can't believe I said some things) and we did have lotsa boy talk, shared our thoughts, dreams and fears. I guess it's these little things that saw us through the tough sentence till the day we tasted freedom. It was pretty cool hanging out with GS and the girls the other day. I was reminded of her artistic self (even in dressing,eish!), her humor which is on a class of it's own, reliability and encouraging spirit. You rock GS!

Finally, there's CNN. I could write a book about her. Where to start?! from the beginning, duuh! Okay, here goes...we met in August 2010, at the gates of paradise (Campus) when we were as fresh as the greens in Gakoromone Market (Meru town, haha), maybe that's why they called us freshmen :) How did we get to know each other, you may ask? Well, we were in the same orientation group and that's how we got around to talking. From then on, we turned out to be bosom buddies till this day. Fast forward to the past few months, we ended up sharing a presidential suite(room) and many interesting experiences as well. CNN is the one person I'll forever give mad respect, for enduring my endless outbursts of annoying mood swings and emotional roller coasters. Most were extended to her (unconsciously of course) as a result of the stress caused to yours truly by one Mr. X. However, she was always there for me and lent a helping hand even without me asking. One thing about CNN I'll forever appreciate was the way she extended her support for me during the period I lost both my grandparents, especially during my birthday period. On top of all that, she is one mature, self-respecting and God-fearing lady, with a maturity so rare in young people today. CNN is an amazing friend who never fails to keep me in check and is one of the few people that accept correction and is tremendously slow to judge. Memorable moments? They are numerous, but the Dalafe dinner has got to be the best so far. One more thing? She is smart and easily reads between the lines. Mad love CNN!

So, there you have it. A little appreciation for my closest and most influential girlfriends. All of whom I love, respect and appreciate so dearly.
The time is now 1409h and my tummy is making so much noise, it's almost echoing in the entire library. I've got to go devour that scrumptious spaghetti I made last night...yummy!!

Have a delightful weekend!



A true friend never gets in your way unless you happen to be going down - Arnold H. Glasgow

A sinner's simple prayer

"Here I am again dear Lord, I'm calling on your name, I've done this many times before but this time it's not the same...I only came to say, I love you Lord..."

A prayer I've made so many times yet I keep finding myself descending my self-made bottomless pit. It's like I'm searching for something to fill this void in the life of me...And I keep running away from you, yet you always catch up with me. I acknowledge Lord, that nothing or no-one can replace your place in my life. I'm sorry, very sorry and ashamed for this sin that so easily entangles. I don't care about "having-fun-the worldly way" anymore. All I wanna do is serve you in the life you'll call me to. True, being your child calls for sacrifice, self-denial and total obedience to you. Not many envy this lifestyle, but Lord? I choose your way. I'm tired of living recklessly and feeling all empty inside, furthermore, without you.
As I utter these words in all humility, I am beginning to experience a calm wave and peace wash over my mind, heart, body and soul- something I've been longing for all my life. Material things, books, treasures-all these are meaningless. Only you can sustain my life. I now surrender my all to you.

"Take my life and let it be,
consecrated Lord to thee,
Take my moments and my praise
let them flow in ceaseless praise..."

From this day on Lord, I give myself wholly and completely to you. My thoughts, my feelings, my desires, my emotions, my will, my energies, my passions_ my EVERYTHING.
All I need is you Lord. Come and make my heart your home; and Lord? help me hold on to you ALWAYS. Saturate my soul and mind dear Lord, help me be sensitive to your spirit and do your will all the days of my life.

Amen.

From your loving daughter/son________

Life oh life...

Well,well, well,it's been quite a while since I penned something down. The recent past has been rather turbulent for me...spiritually, mentally, emotionally. However, all in all I thank God for the refinement process He's taking me through. Gold doesn't become shiny and pure overnight; it undergoes a thorough purification process, whereby all the impurities are shed, resulting in a high value substance that's adorned and admired by many. In the same way, I like to think of our lives as an intricate course, whereby the trials and temptations of this world form part of our fine-tuning process. The actions and decisions we make determine how we turn out ultimately.

On that note, I intend to share my journey with you and hope we will be able to learn from each other. In my subsequent posts, I will zero in on issues and topics that are of great sensitivity and controversy in our society today; particularly in the church. These include: relationships, purposeful living, sexuality, tithing and commercialization of the church, among others. All views are welcome and greatly appreciated.

Do have a blessed week ahead and may the grace of God be upon you.






You can stand tall without standing on someone; you can be a victor without having victims. -Harriet Woods

More to life

So I've had this terrible week but tried my best to smile through it all. Thank God my parents named me names that have an aura of positivity engrained therein; attributes that have stuck since childhood and how I pray they'll never depart (never-ending joy and tremendous self-worth). Sometimes, things take place in life and you wonder if you have it in you to rise above it all and be stronger than ever. It's particularly harder when people criticize you, alongside the decisions you make, not knowing the intricate nature of the struggles you may be undergoing. All they've gotta do is step in your shoes, walk a mile in them, and maybe, just maybe, they may see how hard it is to hold back tears and fake a smile...

Nonetheless, I am so glad to have Christ in me. He gives me joy, strength and a calm like no other even in the midst of raging adversity. Lyrics from songbirds like Francesca Battistelli bring this love of God richly and artistically. One of my favorite goes like this..

"...there's a joy inside I can't contain
but even perfect days can end in rain,
and though it's pouring down
I see you through the clouds
shining on my face..."

Another favorite by Carrie Underwood that always uplifts my spirits:

"...Jesus take the wheel,
take it from my hands,
coz I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go, so give me one more chance,
save me from this road I'm on.."

When all is said and done, it's important to realize that there is so much more to life than the usual day-to-day pressures and challenges. God didn't promise us that there wouldn't be hard times; we're all susceptible to trials and temptations, but he does guarantee His genuine & everlasting peace and grace always. In short, whenever circumstances seem to get the better of you and threaten to bring you down, turn it around and let this, fuel your determination to make it...

~The purpose of life is a life of purpose~

Seriously??

Lately, I feel that there has been a conspiracy in the universe to tick off Thakura's "little" princess..i.e. me. There are a few things that go unspoken but obviously common sense is not common to all. For instance, a couple of days ago, I was working on a group assignment alongside my fellow students. Some did not even have the courtesy to show up but that was not the problem. As a concerned leader, I sought to find out if they were okay but again, they did not bother to respond. (Seriously, how were some people raised?) Anyway, as if that was not enough, a day to the deadline, one had the nerve to incessantly keep my phone ringing and buzzing with text messages in the name of seeking my help...Hello??? You don't just come waltzing into my space interrupting my me-time, yet expect me to be at your beck-and-call at your convenience. That's just pure disrespect. This got me thinking how we as human beings tend to lack respect for each other, and take a lot for granted. For instance, one great universal African menace (I dare refer to it as such) is punctuality; or lack thereof. It goes without saying, that if a meeting or gathering is scheduled to take place at a certain time, especially if informal, the expected time of arrival automatically would be an hour later. Same goes with dates, functions and other events... I believe that if people truly do respect each other, somethings would come automatically, such as observing time and being mindful of feelings. All human beings have feelings and they should treat each other the way they'd want to be treated. Even the Bible lucidly states that it is imperative to do unto others what you would want done unto you. That said, hope you're inspired to be the best you can be and to respect others in spite of the treatment you get in return. ~Commitment leads to action. Action brings your dream closer~

Beautiful Disaster...

The title, yes creative...but I plagiarized it from Kelly Clarkson's "Beautiful Disaster" ballad. A sweet tune I tell you, talks about a lovelorn girl expressing the darkness in her heart because she feels her prince is wallowing in a world that's threatening to tear them apart. However, she holds on to the pain, tears and laughter and bears it for so long, in the hope that things will look up someday. As Kelly churns out this smooth ballad, you can almost feel the emotions and pain in her voice.
I can't help but think, how different are we from that lovelorn girl? How many times do we hold onto things or people that we love, yet know all too well that these lead to a bottomless pit of self-destruction? As I reflect upon Kelly's deep lyrics, I am reminded of the greedy hyena story, which I believe most of us encountered at some point in our lives..the story simply talks about a hyena who received invites to two parties which were taking place simultaneously. Unfortunately they were located in villages that were far apart from each other and he, being ambitious enough thought that he could attend them both. The roads leading to both villages branched from each other and hyena tried to walk on both paths simultaneously but fell apart and died, hence the swahili proverb, "Njia mbili zilimshinda fisi"
It's funny how many similarities we have with this "fisi", in a subtle kind of way though. The reason I say this is that there are times in life that people clutch on to things n people so tightly, only seeing the surface beauty,but the real disaster comes when what we thought to be so beautiful crushes us and makes almost want to fall apart and break down because of all the pain, disappointment and misery.
Lesson? Look beyond the present, see the bigger picture and hope for the best. Be happy, live right and do everything it may take to make the world a better place. Above all, strive to please God in all you do, and though there may be rainy days, the joy inside you will overflow and the calm he gives cannot be found from mortal man or inanimate things of the world...when all is said and done, "Beautiful Disasters" will be things of the past!!!

...Diary of a lone soul (1)...

Always looked at the stars at night, all alone, wishing I could have someone to share this spectacular moment with..the loneliness killed me slowly inside, couples madly in love all around me, tales and stories of love rent the atmosphere..doing nothing but etching the solitude into the deepest corners of my heart...Nonetheless, I am my own best company, I make me mad, I put a smile on my face, I tell myself what few are too proud or scared to admit to themselves,,that I am beautiful and worth more than material things or the wealth of this world..

I also look around and see hearts breaking all over, the wasted tears spilled over an illusion called love;or is it lust? This makes me glad with the person I am and proud of the great relationship I've got with myself!
Until the day am gonna find my knight in shining armor, the one who'll take the away the misery carved so deep in my soul and put a smile on my round shapely face,the one who'll make me proud to be in his life, the one who'll treat me like such a precious queen till everyone turns green with envy; until the day I meet my prince, I'm gonna wait and have a blast with the three best people in my life: me, myself and I!!!