Beautiful Disaster...

The title, yes creative...but I plagiarized it from Kelly Clarkson's "Beautiful Disaster" ballad. A sweet tune I tell you, talks about a lovelorn girl expressing the darkness in her heart because she feels her prince is wallowing in a world that's threatening to tear them apart. However, she holds on to the pain, tears and laughter and bears it for so long, in the hope that things will look up someday. As Kelly churns out this smooth ballad, you can almost feel the emotions and pain in her voice.
I can't help but think, how different are we from that lovelorn girl? How many times do we hold onto things or people that we love, yet know all too well that these lead to a bottomless pit of self-destruction? As I reflect upon Kelly's deep lyrics, I am reminded of the greedy hyena story, which I believe most of us encountered at some point in our lives..the story simply talks about a hyena who received invites to two parties which were taking place simultaneously. Unfortunately they were located in villages that were far apart from each other and he, being ambitious enough thought that he could attend them both. The roads leading to both villages branched from each other and hyena tried to walk on both paths simultaneously but fell apart and died, hence the swahili proverb, "Njia mbili zilimshinda fisi"
It's funny how many similarities we have with this "fisi", in a subtle kind of way though. The reason I say this is that there are times in life that people clutch on to things n people so tightly, only seeing the surface beauty,but the real disaster comes when what we thought to be so beautiful crushes us and makes almost want to fall apart and break down because of all the pain, disappointment and misery.
Lesson? Look beyond the present, see the bigger picture and hope for the best. Be happy, live right and do everything it may take to make the world a better place. Above all, strive to please God in all you do, and though there may be rainy days, the joy inside you will overflow and the calm he gives cannot be found from mortal man or inanimate things of the world...when all is said and done, "Beautiful Disasters" will be things of the past!!!

...Diary of a lone soul (1)...

Always looked at the stars at night, all alone, wishing I could have someone to share this spectacular moment with..the loneliness killed me slowly inside, couples madly in love all around me, tales and stories of love rent the atmosphere..doing nothing but etching the solitude into the deepest corners of my heart...Nonetheless, I am my own best company, I make me mad, I put a smile on my face, I tell myself what few are too proud or scared to admit to themselves,,that I am beautiful and worth more than material things or the wealth of this world..

I also look around and see hearts breaking all over, the wasted tears spilled over an illusion called love;or is it lust? This makes me glad with the person I am and proud of the great relationship I've got with myself!
Until the day am gonna find my knight in shining armor, the one who'll take the away the misery carved so deep in my soul and put a smile on my round shapely face,the one who'll make me proud to be in his life, the one who'll treat me like such a precious queen till everyone turns green with envy; until the day I meet my prince, I'm gonna wait and have a blast with the three best people in my life: me, myself and I!!!