My little glass heart...

I used to think my heart was made of stone,fibre and hard rock...
I never thought anyone could infiltrate the corners if this lifeline of me,
that anyone could break through the delicate part of mine I'd shielded from the world
That was until I met-them.


They came in all forms-friends-dotting friends, family, men...they promised me the world, swore their loyalty to our friendship or rather what I deemed to be ''friendship''
They gave me their trust and naturally, I was compelled to give them mine...
Little did I know that most of them only had self in mind and ''little miss friendly-yours truly, featured nowhere...
They lied, gossiped, hurt and slandered,
they sourced the rumors and deceit
yet had the nerve to look me in my face,
Stare deep into my countenace as of everything was okay...


That was when I realized that what I believed to have been of stone was nothing more than a piece of glass-so beautiful, yet so fragile and sensitive
They shattered it into millions of tiny minute fragments, with each causing me to bleed inside and hurt, with every step I seemed to make forward...


Through it all, I always heard a still soft voice whisper in my ear-comforting words when I needed them, inspiration when i felt helpless and strength when I felt weary..
Alongside that still soft voice came a warmth so tender and calm...something immeasurable and I could not comprehend...


I decided to pick up my pieces and keep walking on, without looking back...
That still soft voice was always there and the calmness didn't depart, not even for a split second
This voice was like a friend, who would carry me each time I fell,
and would urge me on when the weakness set in
I came to realize that all along,it was you-Lord, you saved me...


You mended my little glass heart
and gave me something to live for,
You gave my life wholeness and meaning,
You filled the empty spaces in my life and put a smile on my broken face
You healed my scars and wounds, and erased all evidence of pain and anguished from me...


You were my friend when the world deserted and mocked me,
They laughed at my Jesus, saying you were only a facade but I knew better, I held onto you because apart from you I can do nothing.


Lord you've taken me from the bottomless pit of despair, loneliness and self-pity
and carried me in your warm strong arms, to a realm of joy, peace and grace in you...I would never trade anything in the world for this..
I'm holding onto you- to carry me, lead me, guide me and to help me live for you...ALWAYS,
it doesn't matter what they say,
it's okay if they throw rocks and stones my way
to break my little glass heart, because they'll be flung right back at them, since you surround me...


Lord on my own, I am helpless.
I need you-always have,always will
The satisfaction I get from knowing you is like none other on this earth
You've seen me through my darkest and brightest moments, yet you never changed or left me; you accepted my imperfections and forgave my iniquities
-a love I've never known.


Take over my life;
and guard my little glass heart
-this my humble prayer to you dear Lord.